Monday, 14 December 2015

Why I Haven't Been Blogging Lately


Okay... so I've been sitting here for a good ten minutes, staring at the screen and wondering what to write. First of all, I should probably apologise for being absent on my blog for the past month. I feel like I'm beginning to sound like a broken record when I say this, but I've been finding it really hard to blog lately. Aside from being incredibly busy with work, Christmas coming up and just generally life getting in the way, I haven't really felt inspired to blog at all. There are so many things I want to blog about, but when it comes to sitting down at my computer and putting pen to paper (or finger to keyboard) I've found it almost impossible.

I'm a perfectionist, and whilst I've debated churning out half-arsed blog posts on here to keep the content consistent, I just haven't been able to bring myself to do it. Part of me feels like there just aren't enough hours in the day to put in the effort I want into my blog, and then another part just thinks I'll never be able to complete with the hundreds (probably thousands) of blogs out there now.

I've been blogging since February 2010, and since then it's been a whirlwind of opportunities and achievements, and I'm so proud of that. But for the past year or so, my love affair with blogging has been turning a bit stale and I find that I'm not reading blogs anymore, through the fear of being left feeling unhappy about myself - from jealousy over my blog not being as good as theirs, to feeling down about how the way I look. This recent post by Hannah Gale (a blogger I totally love, whose blog always makes me feel up instead of down) really resonated with me, and inspired me to get back into the swing of things, and to stop trying to compete with all the other blogs around me.

It's so true that blogs have turned into glossy, unrealistic images of perfection that leave me (and I'm sure lots of you too) with the same hollow feeling reading fashion magazines used to years ago, when I was consumed by them. But that shouldn't be what blogging is about, and I feel like that is something I have, and will always, stand by. I don't want people to come to my blog and leave feeling sad, like they'll never be able to have the things I do. I want them to feel inspired, empowered, and happy. Whether that's from a review of a beauty product that has turned my makeup routine upside down, an honest-to-blog deep and meaningful post about life that has resonated with them, a quick and easy cupcake recipe that they need to try, or an outfit post on my current favourite 'sling on and go' sweater.... whatever it is, I want it to make my readers feel happy, positive and inspired.

So, as hard as it is, I'm going to try and stop comparing myself to others. No, I don't have the perfect figure, the perfect lifestyle, or the perfect home, but I am so grateful for the things I do have and I'm determined not to forget that.

I'm not making promises, because I know I'll only set myself up to fail, but I'm going to try and get back to blogging. I won't let myself throw something I'm so proud of away because of what other people are doing. So, expect to see a lot more of me here from now on in!
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  1. Don't worry about taking a break everyone needs one now and again, especially at Christmas! I always love reading your blog and hope you great back into the swing of it soon! We have a habit of comparing ourselves to everyone we meet but I always try and remember that if every blog looked the same people would get bored so don't worry what anyone else's blog looks like or reads like. People follow you for a reason :) xx

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  2. I love your blog posts - in part because I identify with so much of what you write, in part because you're so real, and in part because of the uplifting inspirations you find. I love the happy mood things in the photo. You DO deserve good things and you ARE awesome! I too have been having a hard time getting blog posts together and let myself get discouraged with some setbacks (my computer, printer/scanner and camera all died, my internet connection is terrible, and I got false-flagged into a Disqus algorithm that marked most of my thoughtful comments as spam (and went on a rant about it). But You help me realise that there's much to feel positive about.
    I think you're fabulous just as you are :)

    http://www.full-brief-panties.blogspot.com/

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  3. I've always loved your blog Hannah, and I completely agree with everything you said in this post. I too worry that my blog isn't good enough and that I'm not a Victoria's Secret model (by the way you are stunning and don't forget that!!) my home isn't wonderful etc etc but the readers I do have are loyal and enjoy my posts and that's what matters, and as long as you're happy and enjoy blogging and the people who read it love it that's all that matters. It is easy to compare yourself to others, I am guilty of that too, I worry my lighting isn't good enough or my photographs aren't professional enough but I need to stop doing it. Take care of yourself darling and be happy, lots of love xxxx

    Zoe ♥ MammafulZo

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  4. I have felt exactly the same way lately and considering 2015 has been one of my hardest years in recent years, it's been hard to get back into it. x

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  5. I completely understand this post. I'm just recently back into blogging after a year or so hiatus and it is so easy to compare yourself to others. I told myself a long time ago "don't compare, you'll never be satisfied." I think your blog looks beautiful and there's great content! Can't wait to keep up with your posts.

    katiechamel

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